What Happened?

Some times we need explanations to what happens in our lives and why they happen...do you have any for this mess the last few days????????

Some where between my car breaking down all month of Feb. and spending $1500.00 I woke up in another personal nightmare all its own these last few days…
Long story short –

Saturday – Cars in and out of shop past few days. Still not fixed.
I go out to shoot pool find out this guy I am mad about *lustfully so far by the way* is in town. Good or bad – I say bad, because I put so much weight on since he last seen me. But good that he was there the night before on Friday so I havent got to see him yet. But i know i will run into him.

Sunday – my sister calls me to tell me my father has been taking radiation for the last month for prostate cancer!!!! WHAT THE FUCK! I couldn’t believe it. The man that was never sick all his life. He kept it hidden from us all. My sister is the only one who lives in the same state and city as he does. She alone was lucky to get the news out of him.
So after much tears and searching for information – I am not angry with him for not telling but more worried now that I will loose my father soon. I almost feel like I am in some one else’s body right now. I think I am in shock. (more on this as I learn more)

Night time – went to dinner with DJ at an all you can eat seafood buffet on Hosmer in Lakewood. Was all right food of course paid the price though….moves on to Monday….

Monday – Felt sick in the stomach all day started getting cramps and what not. Gas got crazy – yeay I said gas..poot poot…

Sister calls me that afternoon – She now being the barer of bad news (telling of my fathers cancer) she proceeds to tell me she had a mammogram and they found a lump. They are going to explore some options with her and go from there.

Life is scary and reminders are always popping up reminding you that life is also sooo short.
None the less I am now doing double prayers ceremonies for both her and my father. We have cancer ratings in my family on both sides at great percentages. Keep fingers crossed and if you out there feel the need to send a word or two to god …please do.

Tuesday – Get up for work, feel sort of a grumbling in my stomache…hmmmm go to the bathroom and I swear what would and should usually come out with some sort of mass and a bit of effort with pushing and what not…came a stream like a water fall.
I couldn’t believe it. So I got the runs….
Decided to still go to work being that my job enables me to be able to get to the bathroom when ever needed. Off I went. Got to work and oh boy was that a wrong choice. By 9 am I was over the toilet spewing my internal hell. By 10 am I was on the road back home.
All day I was in bed from 11 until 9 Tuesday night when finally I could hold ice cubes down after crunching them.
RECAL OF THE POOT POOT from Monday…and RECALL of me going out to eat Sunday night….
I believe I got some sort of food poisoning.

Wednesday – Confirmation on the Food Poisoning – DJ just called me to tell me he has been off from work since yesterday too with the same thing. Hmmmm …does anyone know what to do in this case? I mean do you go to the health department or what? We both did not go to the doctors so hmmmm…there is no proof yet there is cause we both went we both ate we both are sick the same….
I did manage to get to work today. Yet under a cloud that was holding my brain for hostage and I couldn’t consentrate or anything. Was glad when the day was over.
Now I am home – tired over tired from the last few days mentally and physically. Off to bed. As I recall these last few days and ask What happened?

Over and Out