Friends - Do ya help or stay silent?

Let me start off by saying and then repeating - "I love my friends" and again repeating it "I love my friends!"

I truly do. I do believe though, that some where friendship can be defined with a bit of insanity - devotion - organization - trust - commitment - pleasure - hate - roll your neck sort of attitude.
As long as you have the devotion, commitment and trust, I believe it will hold strong a life time.
BUT - let me get this off my chest.
I have a friend - again repeating - "I love my friends" I only call a select few friends the rest are associates.
Well, I got one who is so in the hole right now. Trying to get on her feet. Lord knows its hard. I have been there.
Matter fact let me get this out too - Last month - I just paid off my last 600 dollars to a fine I had for years. I had over 10 thousand dollars in fines, bills and what not. It took me almost 3 years to free myself of these. SO, when I speak of the vision in front of me - I do know what I am talking about.

Well, ol' girl has got her head in all the wrong places. I am wondering if and where I draw the line to say things or deal with things or even for that matter help with things. How far do I actually go? Do I hold my tongue? Do I point out the faults? Do I keep a shoulder to lean on - when I just got done building a pillar of my own to hold me? I am strong and wiser from my journey the last few years. With getting up in age (35) I have come to realize that I needed to get my stuff together before it was too late.
I can't seem to quit fussing at my friend for having a 200 dollar telephone bill - when she fusses about not having a car. I can't seem to get past buying trinkets when she fusses about her bills and her debts (which are in great #'s). I do understand the feeling of drowning...I felt like I was drowning the hole time before I actually set out to stabilize myself. During the course of the three years it took, it drove me nuts not to get my nails done with 20 dollars...what would 20 dollars do anyway I always asked. But I did it. I applied every penny even my nail money to my future and am sooo relieved at where I am getting to now.
I thought my friend had a desire to get ahead now that she claimed she was trying to get things together but in actual- her together so far are excuses. She can put money on a mans jail books, claiming love, but yet she don't love herself enough to put her money toward getting things done and better for herself.
Her decisions on working are made of who she likes rather than money. NOT saying that money is the only thing that matters with jobs but when you are made of better had better and offered better but choose less cause you don’t like someone - there are bigger issues than what meets the eye.
Why work for a single check in two weeks that brings 300 dollars when you could be working for 700. or more?
I just have love for her and would only want the best for her. I can't seem to get my frustration out of the way though. I find myself saying things to irritate her and it does. But yet, if I don't keep on her I feel like I am not doing her justice by agreeing with what she is doing.
Geesh....what a long, long, long thought I had tonight...
My only question still remains is, Do I shut my mouth and be a friend or open my mouth and be a friend that in the process might get lost cause she may happen to tune me out?????
Yes I am frustrated....Can you tell?
It's not even my life yet it bothers me as such.
"I love my friends"

Walking on Ruston Way - in Tacoma

Tonight, I went walking down at the water front in Tacoma. "Ruston Way"
It was really nice out today but I went right as the sun was going down.
After the sun left boy did that temperature drop fast! Got sooo cold
but I kept walking anyway. This also is a new thing for me.
I want to start walking to better my health.
Ever since my break up a few years back. (Nothing seriouse since than)
I have gianed like 35 pounds of which I am not happy about.
I may just start another blog for sanity's sake - of my weight loss fight.
But none the less I took this picture while I was on my walk.
Even though my camera was set for night vision - for some reason the lights
came out like motion or something.
But I liked the pic so here it is.
Ruston Way at Night

My Drama Queen

My daughter takes about 10 pictures a day now that we have a digital camera.
This happens to be one of my favorites.

You may get to see more in the near future but this is it for now.

Finding NeverLand - Not Michael Jackson's either!

I went to see the movie today
"Finding NeverLand".

I went with a girl friend Christine. A nice day to watch a good movie!
Not at all the movie, I thought it was going to be. Yet, I smiled through the whole entire movie. Really, I sat there and had a smile on my face the entire time. It's not a movie that is either comedy or drama yet it is. It had a great story line beyond that of NeverLand and Peter Pan. Johnny Depp of course did wonderfully, as usual. Kate Winslet also did well, although her part smaller than her knowingly "Titanic" performance. This movie keeps you smiling yet not laughing your head off. Makes you think deeply yet not forgetting you dreamed once as a child and maybe find that you still need to "believe" sometimes. She again plays opposite of one of Hollywoods Hunks! What a lucky girl she is! This movie again will start you smiling and give you a chuckle all the way through. Even though you will end in tears, some how...the tears come yet you still have a smile on. Good for all ages. Maybe not a "must" see. But one you should make time for sooner or later. It won't fail you!

DVD Burner (Sony) NEW

Thanks to Mr. Steven for the install - YEAY! Today I got my dvd burner installed and running! Wooohooo! No stopping me now. Got it from NewEgg. They are proving so far to be a good company to work with. No hassles and hardley any wait time. I also am in the middle of an exchange of a memory stick and they are making it sooo easy for me.
Back to my burner -
I am just about to join the crazy Netflix world of BURN craze!
I have burned so far Butterfly Effect and House of the Dead. Next on the list is Freddy V Jason and The Recruit.
These movies I got on hand from a friend to test it out. The real fun is going to begin when I get my collection of Brad Pitt movies going. I want every movie he has every made. Yes, I am. I am an avid Pitt fan.
You will most likely hear losts more about that at a later date.
All though I do have lots to say or question about Aniston & Brad, I mean can they really end? Well duh, of course they can but it just seems that they would stay together, being they look good together. Ha-Ha isnt that small pea brianed thoughts...well...
I guess its time for me to call it a night while I let my torrent run to download my other movies. That is one of the sites I use for my P2P sharing.

meagain2

meagain2
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Geesh - trying to get out of the house today. I am stuck downstairs (dark image) in my pc room - just thought i would stick my tounge out to the world and say hey! So Hey! and I really need to be out shopping... whats stopping me? Nothing at all I guess. Its sunny out I should actually get out there. Maybe I will, I think I will take my cam out and take the kids to the park. hmmm...at least that will give me something meaningful to post later. Ok, yea great idea - glad i thought of it. ok well off i am going. Oh the wonderful rainbow and what not is a picture my daughter and her sister did a few months back I think i will post that next, they did rather well with the painting on the wall. Ok enough for now postings and pics to come later.
Over and Out.

Jazzy is 1 year old!

Jazzy
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This is the newest member of our family. Not mine persay but my daughters half sister. But we don't use the terms half or what not.They run the same blood in their veins so, She is what she is! A doll - and A 1 Year old as of Feb!
I didn't want to forget to add this wonderful moment in time as she will be sooo grown soo fast!
Specially following after her Drama Queen Sister!

What are you hearing? What you want or what your being told?

Work has been hard to say the least the last couple weeks. More so than usual because I have two customers that are deaf, mute, or both.
There is no room for in-betweens.

I have one customer that doesn’t understand that calling “you” back when I have the information means “I” am the one to initiate the call. Not call me every morning right as I get in before I can even get my own messages and or notes together. “Did you hear anything yet?” Well for jiminy crickets!! You know the answer I want to give is “Yea asshole I heard me tell you “I” would call you when I did!” What is wrong with these people? Ok, I can understand the second day. I can understand if I haven’t been giving them the same answers. I could understand if like a day went by and there was no communication…but give me a chance to do my job. When a person says they will call you back. That’s what it means. You think you may be pushing the ball or getting things done but in actual you are just irritating the people on the other end. I would like to be rid of you quicker than I would like to help you by the tenth phone call. So, get the hell away from the phone so maybe, I can get some work done, to get your answer, so that I can call you!
Than there is customer number two – who understandably has errors in her order due to explaining the same job three different ways to three different people and expecting it to get right the first time. Ok maybe that’s our fault, if we were on our toes more.
Ok, Ok…I can take the blame - not personally but for the company - so I take the job into my own hands…I say, soon as I get the proof I will call you and then fax it to you.
Why do you show up when I first walk into work and then why do you come back at lunch time, when I tell you the words “when I get it I will call you and fax it to you” You huff and puff like you could be doing something so much more better than coming down here twice a day for two days!
Not only are you slowing down my jobs for others but you are now making it a situation where I want you to go away! Besides isnt there some other job you should be doing that would be better than driving down here to look at me and say, "is it in yet?"
Are you starting to get the hint here…. ???

Its really simple science.

Let people do their jobs, stop nagging, stop trying to get the ball rolling in your corner only, stop trying to always be the top dog, stop trying to take up everyone else’s time.
Why do I say this, because you want so bad you will end up with something you dont like, trying to hog time and the ball will only end up with someone else coming out on top, winner, and you dissatisfied, time is everyones dont push your short timing on others as their problem...it truly is only your own.
Biggest Rule - Stop, listen, then react.
If timing is of an issue ask about the direct time for specifics. NOT when will this come in? Because usually that means if there are no questions or problems it will be in soon but if you don’t ask specific questions than if there is a problem you don’t seem to understand that problems take time to resolve. By the way you are human right? Well I am sorry for your time crunch – you should have given your self time to give us time, for mistakes…
I mean if you are human…you do make mistakes too right?
Yea, like the one above when I said "I" would “call you”.

PS. Let me say it for the record. My work is fun and enjoyable. I am one of the few people that can say I like what I do. I love my customers and I love to make them happy. Its is also my goal/job to keep you around, and to in turn have you come back again a satisfied person. BUT - please again, dont abuse the time the lord has given us. Understand everything has rules, regulations and directions. I follow mine, you follow yours and if timing is an issue - I am sure there are a few more rules to be made to grant you some more, you just have to find it!

What Happened?

Some times we need explanations to what happens in our lives and why they happen...do you have any for this mess the last few days????????

Some where between my car breaking down all month of Feb. and spending $1500.00 I woke up in another personal nightmare all its own these last few days…
Long story short –

Saturday – Cars in and out of shop past few days. Still not fixed.
I go out to shoot pool find out this guy I am mad about *lustfully so far by the way* is in town. Good or bad – I say bad, because I put so much weight on since he last seen me. But good that he was there the night before on Friday so I havent got to see him yet. But i know i will run into him.

Sunday – my sister calls me to tell me my father has been taking radiation for the last month for prostate cancer!!!! WHAT THE FUCK! I couldn’t believe it. The man that was never sick all his life. He kept it hidden from us all. My sister is the only one who lives in the same state and city as he does. She alone was lucky to get the news out of him.
So after much tears and searching for information – I am not angry with him for not telling but more worried now that I will loose my father soon. I almost feel like I am in some one else’s body right now. I think I am in shock. (more on this as I learn more)

Night time – went to dinner with DJ at an all you can eat seafood buffet on Hosmer in Lakewood. Was all right food of course paid the price though….moves on to Monday….

Monday – Felt sick in the stomach all day started getting cramps and what not. Gas got crazy – yeay I said gas..poot poot…

Sister calls me that afternoon – She now being the barer of bad news (telling of my fathers cancer) she proceeds to tell me she had a mammogram and they found a lump. They are going to explore some options with her and go from there.

Life is scary and reminders are always popping up reminding you that life is also sooo short.
None the less I am now doing double prayers ceremonies for both her and my father. We have cancer ratings in my family on both sides at great percentages. Keep fingers crossed and if you out there feel the need to send a word or two to god …please do.

Tuesday – Get up for work, feel sort of a grumbling in my stomache…hmmmm go to the bathroom and I swear what would and should usually come out with some sort of mass and a bit of effort with pushing and what not…came a stream like a water fall.
I couldn’t believe it. So I got the runs….
Decided to still go to work being that my job enables me to be able to get to the bathroom when ever needed. Off I went. Got to work and oh boy was that a wrong choice. By 9 am I was over the toilet spewing my internal hell. By 10 am I was on the road back home.
All day I was in bed from 11 until 9 Tuesday night when finally I could hold ice cubes down after crunching them.
RECAL OF THE POOT POOT from Monday…and RECALL of me going out to eat Sunday night….
I believe I got some sort of food poisoning.

Wednesday – Confirmation on the Food Poisoning – DJ just called me to tell me he has been off from work since yesterday too with the same thing. Hmmmm …does anyone know what to do in this case? I mean do you go to the health department or what? We both did not go to the doctors so hmmmm…there is no proof yet there is cause we both went we both ate we both are sick the same….
I did manage to get to work today. Yet under a cloud that was holding my brain for hostage and I couldn’t consentrate or anything. Was glad when the day was over.
Now I am home – tired over tired from the last few days mentally and physically. Off to bed. As I recall these last few days and ask What happened?

Over and Out